Feeling kinda sad when moved from a place to another strange place. I don't like to move. Its so troublesome to move when you already settled down and ready to get used to the environment. Its feel odd when you wake up in a different place. For me at least. It so difficult for me to fit into a new place. A place where everything totally new to me. That make me feel insecure. Same to thought too. It happens when something just go into your mind and tell you to change your plan. I need sometime to adapt, to adjust. I can't flick and change it just like that! Too many to think, too many to handle. But what to do? Its for my own sake. Mom told me, that's no time to think for other people, think for yourself ok? I want to go home. This time I really do. I don't have my own, private place now. My own space. I need a place where I can really relax and do nothing and don't have to think of other things. Anything. What's the point that the place you live is free but can't give you comfort and the feel that you so called home? Maybe I will leave when I reached my limit. This is not what I want. All of them. Really sorry to say that. People always called you a playboy when you try to find mates in the same time but why they never think of people are just searching for their true love? Just a random thought of mine. Its hurt. It really do hurt. Its a process. Need to go though it, survive and be safe. Hoping that I could learn a bit and hate myself know how to give but don't know how to take. Feel fear to take. Need to change that. Put it in the list...
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